If this post never makes it, I'm sorry.. I'm tired, and half snapped.

So.. today was D's 21st birthday. That may be a big deal to all you American's, but not such a big deal here. Except, now we're all allowed back into the bar Devlin's which we never did go to because we ended up watching New Your City Ballet. Odd I tell you.

I've come to realize that I'm the fat person who's just hanging with the cool people. I mean, I fit in some times, but then I realize, wait.. no I don't. Don't get my wrong, I value frienship. And I value these frienships. Two million in case you're interested in purchasing.

Here they are all dressed nicely to go out to the bar.. and I look.. freaky. All black, dark circles under my eyes. I've also come to realize, I am going no where in life.

Michael from work started to conversation by asking what I wanted to do with my life. Or was that Greg from work? I don't know, both creep me out muchly. Then my friends all talk about being with thier boyfriends, or on birth control, and or needing to eventually be on it because they have boyfriends and I'm a lonely sad sob. Anyways... Half my friends are going back to school the other half have already been to school. And I... have a bartending degree that I will never use because I don't even know why I really took it. But hey it counts as post secondary.

I'm lonely, and hungry. The stairs are out to get me. Mandi says the bum is the best way to conquer them. I agree, scare the damned cats. Cats be gone! Arg, they are so annoying as of lately. About two days after my roomate left for Italy her cats have been harrasing me none stop. GIVE ME LOVE. I NEED ATTENTION. ARG!!!!! I don't need that at bloody six in the morning. I must go pass out now, my neck hurts as do my eyes. This monitor is way to big.